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catatonicstarFUDGE!!
I am outside of our house and there is an ANNOYING CRYING BABY from NEIHGBORSHIT, that creature is sure doing great on how it scream and bother others.
On the other hand, I am, again, having thoughts...
I found myself having an envy to that ANNOYING CRYING CREATURE, for that "creature" is having its free will to do whatever it want - poop here, cry there, poop again everywhere, without even bothering itself on thinking (well, babies don't really think) everyone surrounds.
While ME, a SEMI-GROWN HUMAN BEING is having a hard time calculating every scenes in my everyday life just to make sure no one will, I ever, affected.
Often, it's okay to be hurt than hurt others; but I don't really enjoy myself being hurt so sometimes, I don't realized that I am already hurting others; but, again, always, I don't want to be hurt and I don't want others to be hurt by me, so I ended up on, the worst case scenario, not doing anything; And because I'm not doing anything, I am not losing nor gaining something. The ending of the ending is Me hurting myself.
Sometimes, I want to go back from the time, that I am still a baby, an ANNOYING CRYING BABY, or not.
I am outside of our house and there is an ANNOYING CRYING BABY from NEIHGBORSHIT, that creature is sure doing great on how it scream and bother others.
On the other hand, I am, again, having thoughts...
I found myself having an envy to that ANNOYING CRYING CREATURE, for that "creature" is having its free will to do whatever it want - poop here, cry there, poop again everywhere, without even bothering itself on thinking (well, babies don't really think) everyone surrounds.
While ME, a SEMI-GROWN HUMAN BEING is having a hard time calculating every scenes in my everyday life just to make sure no one will, I ever, affected.
Often, it's okay to be hurt than hurt others; but I don't really enjoy myself being hurt so sometimes, I don't realized that I am already hurting others; but, again, always, I don't want to be hurt and I don't want others to be hurt by me, so I ended up on, the worst case scenario, not doing anything; And because I'm not doing anything, I am not losing nor gaining something. The ending of the ending is Me hurting myself.
Sometimes, I want to go back from the time, that I am still a baby, an ANNOYING CRYING BABY, or not.
